memory lane

I haven’t exactly been getting the ideal hours of sleep lately so I slept in until 10am today. I called my mom to pack me an extra shirt because I wanted to go to the gym today. My dad came by at 11:30 to drop off my stuff and food. Can’t wait to go home after this week for a nice 3 day off followed by another trip home a few days later to witness my brother’s high school graduation.

Anyways, I got a lot of soup and udon noodles to eat for lunch. Then I snacked on a cob of corn before doing one problem of physics and heading out to the gym. My results this time is a little disappointing. I spent about 50 minutes cycling and only ended up burning approximately 250 calories. If I look through my old posts to see how much I was able to burn during fall quarter, I think it was pretty different. After the gym, I went with my friend to Westwood (i.e. Target, Trader Joe’s, and an attempt at Diddy Riese).

I tried on a dress at Target. And that was where I realized how truly unsatisfied I am with my body. I am nowhere near fat by the American standards but I’d be so pudgy in Asia. In the Target dressing room is a large mirror with a smaller long mirror that allows you to see your back and other angles that one mirror alone would not allow you to do. Looking at my backside with only undergarments on made me realize just how thick my body parts got. I normally wear loose fitted shirts so that I don’t even feel the fattening process. But a few days ago, I tried to wear a pair of shorts that fitted me well last summer and I couldn’t even wear it now without seeing love handles spilling over. I believe this is a true testimony to my need to stop eating four freaking plates of food at the dining. If I don’t leave the dorming lifestyle, I don’t think I can save myself. How can you resist all-you-can-eat? I would initially be willing and able to restrict how much food I intake but after a while, I just forget and chow down everything I want to eat/try. Then before I know it, I eat twice the amount I actually would at home.

Additionally, seeing how difficult it is for me to burn calories again is starting to put things back into perspective. I can’t wait to start living in the apartments. I used to just drink water when I am hungry when I still lived at home. I should start doing that again once I no longer have an unlimited food source. It’s kind of hard to do that right now. It’s not even going to be that bad because if I get tired of water, I actually have tea that I should be brewing and drinking for my hair. It would keep me hydrated in the summer and do well for my appearance. My diet shall also contain a lot more vegetables.

Looking back, I am glad I wasn’t able to get Diddy Riese right after Trader Joe’s. It would have defeated the purpose of the workout and have me consuming junk food. What I need right now is great self-control. Went back to my room and ate my pastry, another cob of corn, and some cracker and eggroll snacks for dinner. That still sounds like a lot. Man I really should not have. Maybe I should start documenting my food intakes so I can look back at what I already ate that day and resist.

Lastly, I went to see a Chinese cultural dance at 7pm. I don’t imagine it being anywhere near the Spring Sing I was unable to see, but it was free and it was quite worthwhile to see. It lasted 2 hours and some parts made me feel the itching to do what they were doing. I don’t know why. Maybe it is the mirror neuron effect.

Okay, I’m done here. Till next time!

Apparently I was writing so loud in the library that the guy in front of me had to give me one of his scratch paper to put underneath the paper I was writing on to reduce the noise. :( I didn’t know I was writing that loud…

And by that, I mean me. I don’t mean to come off as egotistical here but it’d be nice to document a confirmation of my self-worth and character. I don’t think highly of myself and don’t broadcast my accomplishments, which tend to lead me to blank state of mind when it is time to talk about myself in interviews. So it would be nice to have an actual example I can refer to in the future with this post!

For the past few days, I have been so busy dealing with other people’s problems and issues that I didn’t really get the chance to study for the midterm I took yesterday and to study for the quizzes I am about to have later on this week. My brother has been going through a pre-college crisis involving financial aid and summer courses for units. Things are still not looking too well in either aspect but this is the best we could do right now.

A friend is contemplating and is about to complete transferring and I am trying my best to help her out with whatever I know, be it on the academic, financial, and housing aspects.

Another friend is stressing and dealing with a fundraiser project. I told her that if I did well on my midterms (that took place two weeks ago), I will donate some money. I didn’t exactly do that well in both, but I still donated $10 to her kickstarter. For the record, I was willing to donate $25 if I aced both but I didn’t. :/

An hour ago, a person I contacted a month or two ago regarding summer subletting contacted me again to see if I would still be interested if she lowered the rent. Since I already found a place, I wasn’t interested at all. However, I did know a person who I suppose is a “friend” was still looking. So for an hour, I worked as a great intermediate between them. In the end, the world aligned and they both expressed their thanks and gratitude for my help. I suppose that makes my procrastination worthwhile. They are likely discussing the details now as I typed this.

Can’t believe I have been out solving so many other people’s problems but not my own. But hey, I feel like I am a great person towards others… Just not so much for myself. Le sigh.

I had a peanut butter pie for dessert at dinner. I normally don’t like pie, but this was delicious.

Disclaimer: I get really weird towards the end of the night, hence this random update at 2:30am in the morning about a minor something that technically happened yesterday.

A few days ago, I decided to randomly check up on my classes and I realized that the easy professor who was supposed to be teaching my writing II class in the summer dropped our section and some unknown new professors took over. I’m so saddened. I hope they aren’t much harder. This summer’s classes were not meant to be difficult during my session A so that I can learn a little on the side while I still get to relax, exercise, shop, and enjoy life. I don’t get to freely spend my time lying around doing nothing often. Nonetheless, only doing 2 classes is already mentally and psychologically much freer. I hope having lab every day the second session would still be somewhat free.

I stayed at school this mother’s day weekend in hopes of doing work. Nope. Lately, I have gotten back into Candy Crush. It has literally taken over my life. In one week, I went from level 66 all the way to 125. I stopped requesting boarding tickets so I can force myself to stop and regain control of my life again.

But yeah, so my psych midterm really didn’t end up as well as I thought. My genetics midterm didn’t end up as well as I hoped either but I still managed to be in the top percentile of the class. Unfortunately, I did not make the top 5% so it just tells me that trying to get top 5% on the final would still be pretty difficult to accomplish. (The professor has stated that the top 5% on the final automatically gets A’s in the class).

Now I have my second physics midterm in two days. My first physics midterm didn’t go as planned either. Wow, it’s starting to sound like all my testings have resulted in utter disappoints this quarter. I have really lost my mojo. But the physics class drops the lower midterm score so if I do even better than average, it’d be awesome. Now to just focus and study.It’s as if I have gotten ADHD lately or something because my attention span is becoming as short as a fish’s.

It has definitely been a long time since I wrote about my life but I guess it should be expected since it hasn’t been that interesting even though it was my birthday last weekend but still. I did more celebrating the day before my birthday than my actual birthday as in I got presents, saw my friends, ate out for dinner the day before. On the day of, we ordered pizza and ate a chocolate birthday cake. My cousin went to prom the day before my birthday so he missed my birthday dinner along with another cousin who choose to partake in a dance practice instead but whatever. I later learned that my cousin has actually been dating his prom date and has been keeping it a secret. It’s too bad that your prom date revealed that picture cause we all know now. :P

I came back to school on Monday so it doesn’t even feel like a Wednesday right now. Earlier today, I went to go visit/take a tour of the apartment that I will be staying at over the summer. It looked pretty good and I’m pretty content with having chosen this place based solely on first impressions. I was a bit surprised to learn that I won’t have to be signing anything for subletting but I guess that works for me. Anyhow, I haven’t been studying this week since I’m still feeling the aftermath of midterms. I really need to get back at it soon because I start having midterms again starting on Monday. This never ends.

On a side note, it’s kind of bugging me that my roommate is basically taking over my fridge. I let her use it and stuff but I didn’t expect her to use it to the extent of occupying over half of my space especially since I bought the fridge and I’m letting her use it for free. She’s using it so freely to the point where it’s like her’s while I have to upkeep maintenance.