Just read a correspondence of an individual in high school expressing his thoughts on subject matters (I’m creepin’, I know). All I see is the lack of depth and understanding in his answers. His thoughts came across to me as naive and innocent, giving off the vibe that he had never experienced the world outside of the safety of his home. And by home, I mean a solely inclusive, closed-off community. It made me realize how much I’ve grown and how much knowledge I’ve gain this year just living away from home and taking classes that are offering me so many new ways of seeing how our world is constructed. Each year, I’m just growing more and more and gaining new understandings. The way I perceive the world now feels so drastically different from the way I saw it just a few years ago, maybe even a year ago. I’m really glad to have taken these courses that forced me to really think about other perspectives and understand that the way in which we use language could completely change everything. Looking at my past, I can distinctively see my teenage phase and most importantly, the pent up angst. Can’t believe I’ve grown so much and there’s so much more growing to come.
Out of either procrastination or whatever, I finally updated my college expenses excel sheet today. So far, it looks like living in the apartments is just about as costly as living in the dorms. Living in apartments is just more bothersome in that I have to make food for myself, travel farther, and paying bills. But these are all building my life skills. Plus, having my own bills and shit to deal with improved my credit score drastically (but that still doesn’t account for the whole story).
Just spamming away today. So I think on Tuesday night, I emailed my workplace that I won’t be able to come in because I wanted to rest my thumb. My job is to take measurements of the glucose and lactose concentration in the plasma. To take the measurements, I generally pipet about 3 hours a day for 2 days a week. Long story short, I’ve been doing this consistently since July and I have recently begun doing this on back-to-back days because that’s all my schedule allows me. My right thumb started feeling different over last weekend. I don’t know how to describe it but it felt a little sore and stiff. There was definitely something off about it so I thought it would be good idea to take this week off just as precaution in case I strained something. Moving my right thumb felt different from moving my left thumb. I felt like I needed to put more effort into moving my right one. After looking this up on google, it appears I may have gotten a repetitive strain injury. It feels better now and I’m considering visiting the health center on Monday when I go have my eye check-up if it doesn’t completely clear.
But yeah, the lab assistant got back to me the morning after. They’re generally cool with everything (not that I push any boundaries anyways). The postdoc is now considering the possibilities of my getting more involved with their research if I’m interested (because I asked if there was anything else I could do). Heck yeah! Even though I’m not looking into going that much deeper into the sciences, I still have interest in learning more and contributing more to their research. It’s quite fascinating and I’m also not looking forward to having to do as much Analox (the measurement taking) anymore since I injured my thumb. I really don’t want to push my thumb to the limit and see long term consequences. Must take precautions because this is all I have. This experience made me realize that I take my hand, especially the thumb, for granted and has also given me an opportunity.
Last week I mentioned how I got contacts. I have not been consistently wearing them everyday so I’m only on my fifth day of wearing them. There are some things I’ve noticed. With the contact in my right eye (Dailies AquaComfort Plus), I have a lot of difficulty figuring out whether the contact is inside out. I literally cannot see it being concave either way so I don’t even know if I’m wearing them inside out or not. With the contact in my left eye (Dailies Total 1), I definitely feel the contacts less but I also experience more blurred version. Like the vision is clear for the most part throughout the day but there are also instances where it just get a little blurred. Dailies Total 1 is also thicker than the AquaComfort Plus. I’m amazed at how quickly I got more comfortable with touching my eyeballs. I remember it taking me 30 minutes the day I got my training. It still takes kind of long to put the contacts on, maybe 15 minutes today. But two days ago, taking it out took a few minutes. It’s been about 6 years since I’ve gotten glasses and probably 2-3 years since I started wearing them throughout most of my day. Now I still have some glasses habits even when I don’t have glasses on. Like phantom glasses reflexes (I made that up). I don’t see myself wearing contacts all the time though. There are still going to be days where I will be wearing glasses and giving my eyes a rest from being poked out. Let’s just see how many contacts the school insurance will cover and that’s the amount I’m planning to get for my year supply. I think I’ll choose the Dailies AquaComfort Plus as the brand to stick with. I’m currently on trial, which is why I’m wearing different contact brands for each eye. The comfort one is cheaper, so I’d get more out of it. Just to start with, we’ll see how this goes.
On Monday, I finally got the chance to shadow one of the therapists at the center where I volunteer. I was taken away by the variety of activities that these OTs do with their students, ranging from working on their sensory and motor skills in the gym to the classroom. I love how they call them students instead of clients or patients. I feel like I learned a lot more about this occupation in this particular setting now. Next Monday, I will have my eye dilation exam so I might not get to volunteer as much next week. I hope I still get to shadow though.
On Monday, I took the bus to and from my volunteer place. This is my third time volunteering because last Monday got cancelled. That means the next time I’m going… I’d be able to shadow! On my way back, my bus driver actually made an impromptu stop to go buy a subway sandwich before heading all the way back to UCLA. It was really strange… to be locked up in a bus waiting for the driver to buy a sandwich. Made my trip longer than it had to be. But I guess I can’t complain too much because I barely caught the bus to begin with and would’ve had to wait another 30 minutes for the next one. The bus approached the stop just as I was getting there. Good thing I made it obvious by keep turning my head to make contact and acknowledge that I wanted to take the bus. Otherwise he would have just passed the stop because nobody was getting off.
Today, I got my eye exam that I booked last month. My eyesight is now -3.75 and -3.25. Can’t say I’m too surprised. I got to try out contacts today. It was pretty amazing to be able to see without glasses because your whole visual field is great. You don’t have to move your head to look at things out of your direct line of vision. I was able to do so just moving my eyeballs again! It was even better that I didn’t feel the contacts in my eyes. It was only a pain to put on the contacts and to take it off. It took me about 30 minutes, which I think is not bad after hearing stories about some taking an hour or more. I just hope I could down the time soon so I can actually be more comfortable about it instead of dreading it. I had my appointment at 10:30 and class at 12:00. I thought I wasn’t going to be able to make it but I’m glad I didn’t have to take longer than I did or else I would have been late to class.
Class was interesting and eye opening. A Deaf professor came to lecture today and this week’s readings taught me a lot about Deaf culture. On the bus ride back to my apartment, I got to learn a lot more about occupational therapy from a (new) friend from the class. I am seriously convinced that my biggest shot at OT school is USC. What a blow to my UCLA undergrad and wallet. It’s alright though, I want this.
Then in my apartment, a water bottle exploded. That will be a story for another day when I’m not so riled up.
I’m inspired to start writing more often on my tumblr again, though probably not every day like I used to because my life honestly just isn’t that exciting. Just watched a youtube video where a guy went to his 10 year high school reunion and read a letter he wrote to himself when he was a sophomore. It reminded me that I actually have a journal from my senior year of high school. Unfortunately, it was written in first thing in the morning, being my first period, and I don’t recall events from the day before to write about so I have a feeling every day’s entry is about the same.
But anyways, today I emailed my volunteer place’s office manager about shadowing next week. Although she initially emailed back with two shadowing opportunities, she later retracted after speaking with the owner. The owner doesn’t want volunteers to shadow until they have been volunteering for three weeks. It makes sense, they want commitment and to see the fit between me and the center. I’m only a little bummed out because I got excited about shadowing next week only to be let down a litttle later. Oh well, a few more weeks ago.
Lastly, I called my mom and she told me I got jury duty. I can’t say I didn’t see this coming when everyone around me got summoned. I knew it was going to be one of these days but literally no day will be good for me. When I’m in school, I’m already stressed out as it is and now that I decided to proceed full speed ahead for grad school, I need more time to research into the classes I’ll need to take, study for the GRE, research potential schools, costs, acceptance rates, etc. There’s just a lot running through my mind nowadays. I am starting to feel my motivation coming back, so I hope I can start cranking out productivity soon.
Sometimes I just hate myself and today is one of those days. Procrastination sucks big time. Behind on readings for every single class and haven’t even started my essay that’s due on Wednesday. Midterms next Tuesday. I’m fucked. It’s not like my extracurricular were pulling me away from my homeworking either… I just don’t seem to have the motivation to just sit down and concentrate like I used to. Oh, and I noticed I’ve started to freely cuss more than before too. What is happening…
I wasn’t planning to come home, but my mom convinced me last minute yesterday. Today, I went to the post office to finally mail in my hair to Pantene Beautiful Lengths. It’s official now, I donated my 14.5 inches of hair. It’s been three weeks since I got my haircut and it feels and looks like I already grew back an inch. Is this fast?
And like usual, coming home means I don’t get stuff done. I kind of doubt that I would have gotten work done if I stayed at the apartment too.
Earlier this month, I emailed an occupational therapy place asking if they would be willing to take me in as a volunteer. One thing led to another and I went to an interview today. The people there seem warm and welcoming. And I also have a pretty good impression of the place. Although the office manager will still be contacting one of my references first, it’s pretty much set that I get to start next Monday!